We are created in the image of our almighty God. He is our Father in Heaven which makes us literally His spirit children. We are made of supernal material most precious and highly refined and thus we carry within ourselves the substance of divinity. It is easy to forget who we are living in this world where we experience pain and stress at times beyond what we know how to cope with. All we may know is to do whatever we can just to survive, protect ourself or somehow try to control the environment in which we are in. We do what we have to do and that may require developing a coping mechanism that is later automatically translated to future events by association. We then play out these survival tactics in moments that are unnecessary because we feel we are in a similar threat. These coping mechanisms or patterns are like clouds that cover up our inner divinity.
This substance of divinity within each of us is always there, always present, always pure and holy and undefiled by the world. The fundamental nature of our divinity remains unchanged no matter what overshadows it. Our adopted patterns and behaviors that we may have adopted in order to survive, distract, numb or avoid our own unprocessed pain cover our pure essence or divine nature with dust and filth. We forget or no longer recognize our birth rite and purpose to shine this light.
We are not our coping mechanisms in which we have used to survive and protect. We are not our personas. We are not our patterns or limitations. We are not even our thoughts or our feelings. They do not make us who we are for who we are is the seed of God. For what God has created is sacred and holy. Now what we do with the dust and the filth and whether we choose to use it as fertilizer or as a mask is up to us. We are free agents to these patterns to either rule over them or let them rule over us.
But you may say we have no control over them and they may have become automatic responses from a deep and primal part of the brain and our energetic being but even that can be changed but this process is not one of willpower or force.
We cannot pound ourselves with a metaphorical hammer into obedience as if we we could simply punish ourselves with enough self-loathing to make ourselves behave better. Perhaps we’ve done just that and decided to just give up trying. Or maybe we’ve tried and tried to bend and twist ourselves into being something we are not.
These maladaptive self-protecting behaviors have been serving us and providing some of our most fundamental needs yet in an unhealthy way because that’s all we knew how. Would we scorn a baby for not knowing how to walk? Does that make the baby wrong or bad? As adults we are capable of reasoning and making discerning choices for ourselves.
We have the power to choose to be at the mercy of such dross and allow it to rule our lives, hiding our brilliance and remaining in obscurity. In the short term it may seem like the more comfortable choice. We can also choose to hammer away at ourselves in self-punishment and try to get rid of these patterns and mechanisms that are playing out in our lives. However, this a great waste of energy and precious resources that gets us nowhere.
I was recently confronted with a coping mechanisms that had threatened my sense of security. It was a pattern that has existed throughout most of my life and I thought I was done with it. I was so angered and ashamed that it was still showing up in my life as I was feeling controlled by it. My disgust against this pattern or part playing out in me was so great, I wanted to rip every feeling it had in my body from every pore out of me and be done with it forever.
I will make you go, I told it. To my amazement, I heard the reply that I was not done with it yet for it was still serving a very valuable purpose in my life and would continue to serve me until I embraced an even bolder stance for myself. This pattern of protection was not going to leave me until a new healthier pattern was in place.
I felt a sense of gratitude and forgiveness at this realization and the reminding that yes, I still needed to take a bolder stance for myself. There is freedom that comes with acceptance, that place of being with what is, imperfect and unfinished. There is a lot more room for growth for growth happens in a place of freedom and acceptance, not from a place of pressure or disdain.
There is also enormous self-empowerment that comes with taking that metaphorical scepter of truth and planting it firmly in the ground in such a way as to say, “no more” and take that stance for yourself. It’s a way of coming to your own aid, your own rescue, that charge to protect yourself, honor yourself as worth honoring. It’s to say, “I am here for you, I will be here for you and I will stand for you!” With that declaration, we are making an oath a commitment to ourselves that from here on out, we are willing to move through the pain and discomfort for something even better.
It’s is in that powerful commitment and declaration to oneself, to God and the witnesses that be to set our hearts and our feet upon the path of discipleship. It is in that willing obedience to take a higher path with striving intention that miracles take place. For God surely does hear the cries of the longing and beseeching but he answers the faithful. He hears the cries of the victim but aids the diligent and yes imperfect who seek to stand with Him in His work. We are then provided with everything that we need in our moment of need. All the limitations and earthly things simply fall away. What emerges from the clouds of filth is our brilliant radiance that has been there along shinning even brighter.
I am trained in several healing modalities and familiar with a number of others. It is not the method in of itself that changes a person, although they are profoundly helpful. I can walk and guide a person through a process but it behooves them nothing to go through the motions without full purpose of heart and intent to truly be transformed and let go of what no longer is serving them in a healthy way. Everything is energy and energy obeys intention. It is ultimately up to our earnest intention to stand devoted to a higher way, being faithful and diligent, putting love into action, being willing to accept grace and of course divine timing by which grace light comes in to clear away the debris thus exposing that highly refined brilliant substance of divinity that exists in all of us.