We all have faith. Our lives our governed by faith. Faith is our motivation for the things we do. We wouldn’t do something if there wasn’t some sort of hope, belief or expectation for doing what we do. It’s why we brush our teeth in the morning, eat a chocolate bar in the afternoon, work a job, call up a friend or veg on the sofa.
Faith is a complete trust or confidence in something without having proof. It is a strong belief or expectation that something will happen that propels us to move towards taking the necessary steps.
We can say we have faith that a watermelon seed will grow into a plant and produce watermelons. Because of this faith, we take the necessary steps to provide the conditions for germination and growth. How do we know what these steps are? We can read about it, witness it happening elsewhere or be taught by someone who has had success. Ultimately there is no proof that the seed we have will produce watermelons. There may be conditions of which we have no control over nor can we foresee. We can plant the seed, care for it, hope, learn, try something new, learn, try again and the faith continues to grow with acquired knowledge from proofing that is testing and getting more and more proof. From hindsight, we can look back see what worked and what didn’t for faith to grow.
Faith requires action
Faith increases with greater action and experience. It is only through experience can faith be fully embodied in order to develop unwavering confidence. Faith does not grow a watermelon plant. Faith with right action grows a watermelon plant. Faith without works is dead. The more we use it and exercise it, the more it grows.
Faith is based on devotion
Although faith requires obedience, obedience does not require faith. We cannot have faith without obedience and we can be obedient without having faith. I find the term obedience to have a lot of heaviness around it because we can be obedient out of fear, expectation and even from a place of resentment. I for one was expected to be obedient to my father growing up in the name of religion, God, prophets and his patriarchal authority. My motivation to obey came from a place of being shamed, rejected and abused. Needless to say my trust and confidence in religious and male authority did not grow strong because of the fear and uncertainty that came with it.
I like to use the word devotion. When we are devoted to something, it implies a loyalty of commitment to and allegiance towards. We’re not doing something just because someone told us to or commanded us to. Devotion comes from a place of inner nurturing and care. It is not just the bodily observance of implementing a task, it also includes an inward expression of love for and dedication towards.
Faith requires a daily, consistent practice of not just doing but being in our heart space as our higher self. It means continuously re-committing ourself not just on Sunday’s at church.
I believe that deep devotion and pure intent of heart do not go unrecognized by God and the universe when they are focused on the welfare of others. It is my belief that when we say: “Here I am, I am striving to make life better for others, use me, I am devoted,” we allow ourselves to be chosen as the instrument of God’s hands to perform miracles in His behalf. Heavenly angels are eagerly awaiting humble servants to carry out their mission.
Faith is based on true principle
Faith grows when based on true principles. A good seed does not produce bad fruit and a bad seed does not produce good fruit. How do you know if a seed is good? By its fruits.
My obedience towards some significant male authorities in my life out of coercion and manipulation left me only with fruits of misery. I had enabled them in their sense of entitlement and betrayed myself in the process. I finally arrived at the point where I was able to recognize the destruction for what it was. That I was providing a disservice by not holding these men to be who they were meant to be and took a stance for not only myself but for truth and for the good of us all. It was like taking a drug away from a drug addict and so much of what I was taught and learned was tested and tried again and again.
Many of the structures that I was taught to believe in crumbled from beneath me. These structures only provided me a false sense of security. The structures that I had built my faith on such as being self-sacrificing, submissive, rescuing, saving, and martyrdom began to completely crumble beneath me when I decided that living a life of barely more than walking dead to supposedly earn a crown of glory in heaven was no longer worth it to me. Not only that, it made no logical sense to live a miserable existence so I could earn the right to happiness in the next. Was my family’s life better off for it? Was my life better off because my own mother mrartyrdard her own self for me and my siblings?
At the time, my faith in a new possibility seemed like nothing larger than a mustard seed and taking a stance was the scariest thing I ever did because at the time, I wasn’t even sure what I was taking a stance for.
I wasn’t sure what I believed in anymore and I wanted to take all men, God, religion and throw it all out together and have nothing more to do with any of it.
I was angry and resentful towards all those I believed who had betrayed and defied my trust and confidence. I was angry at myself for betraying myself, that something deep down inside of me that whispered to me that I mattered. I couldn’t quite find it in my religious teachings or from books or teachers. It didn’t matter to me anyway because I knew I had to trust in something from deep inside myself that something was true because my faith in previous sources of authority had withered away.
I had to build whole new structures in my life based upon true principles and as God as my ultimate source of security. Even my relationship and trust with God had to be rebuilt because of my confusing associations. I had to let the old structures fall away before new ones could be built. This can be a very scary process for many of us because it means stepping into what feels like an abyss of nothingness and there’s that bit of trepidation wondering if there will be a safety net to catch us.
The irony is we can’t build up the new structures while still holding onto the old ones. This means being willing to give up trying to fix, control, manipulate, protect the ego or change anyone or anything outside of us and surrender completely to divine will
The internal structures are what get built first before the external structures appear. If we want other’s to believe in us and support us, we must first believe and support ourselves and others. Derek Rydall often says, “What appears to be missing is what we’re not giving.” If we want to be cherished and adored, we must first cherish and adore ourselves and others. If we want abundance we need to circulate it.
It’s not a when .... (the support shows up, or my soul mate comes, or I have more money or have more confidence) then ..... I will believe it and start taking action steps. In essence, we are making that declaration and commitment to put faith into action then the means for what we need begin to show up.
When I left my marriage of 21 years, I was terrified. My trust in God and the universe was battered. My faith in myself and my ability to trust myself was beaten down from a lifetime of self betrayal. It took a lot of faith put into practice over many years to become strong enough in my belief that my life mattered enough to leave a situation that obviously was not going to improve.
I was completely unprepared for how threatening taking a stance for myself would be on my family and the amount of antagonism that would show up from my ex-husband and children as he played the role of the victim. I was told that if I didn’t turn it around and come back, he would make it ugly and he would fight for custody and the home. I didn’t have a car. I made barely enough money just to support myself and I had visions of living in the ghetto, working two jobs and relying on food stamps and no longer having my children with me.
Everyday felt like walking through mud and facing a firing squad of attacks against me for being a selfish horrible person who had destroyed the life of her family. I doubted myself many times. I was judged by many in my church. I was alone and very sad as I grieved the loss of many of the structures of security that my life had been built upon. I was willing and ready to let it all go in order to live my life in alignment with my values again. Many days, all I could do was get up, go to work, come home, go see my kids (I had to be the one who separated) and start the next day over again.
It was through my devotion to living according to true principles and the values from deep down inside of me that my faith began to grow. It was in my willingness to take action even in uncertainty and even while in great fatigue. I wasn’t even sure what was true principles other than an inkling inside of me. I took that inkling and trusted it. As a result my brother bought me a car. I was rehired with a pay raise. I got to keep my home and have enough money to pay my bills and have enough to eat. I’ve had extra work opportunities. I’ve had many opportunities and people come into my life on a continual basis to help me build a business. I may only get to be with my kids for half the week and 3 of them have left me but my relationship with them is slowly improving. My ex-husband is more respectful towards me. I’ve built a new network of loving and supportive relationships. Time and time again, God has showed up for me supporting me and I cannot begin to even express enough gratitude for the blessings I have received. The greatest blessing that has come is the inner freedom I feel to finally be able to embrace and reveal my true essence and become a gift rather than an obligation. I want every woman on earth to wake up to her Divine Nature and become a powerful influence of good in the world. This is my desire for women to change the way they see themselves.